What is your most regretting moment? Maybe you can't tell easily. Usually that moments are related to your biggest mistake. I think my biggest mistake was actually not that serious. But after that accident, I have been regretting.
One day my phone rang. It was D. He said, "It's been so long ago that we met. Do you hav e any appointment this week?" I had so much to do, because I was in high school yet. So I told him that I couldn't meet him. He said "OK, fine."
To be honest, I was interested in his friend J. Since I saw him, I started to like him even though I know he considered me as tiny little kid. I was only thinking about J and didn't give a damn to D who really cared about me when I had hard time.
Few weeks after, J called me at late night. My heart started to run fast. J's voice was so fantastic that made me stupid. As I was staying in my own space, J began talking. "Hey, Portia. Listen carefully. I got something to tell you." My face got hotter. I was so curious about that "something to tell you". Maybe he would like me, too. I was full of hope. But he said, "D was gone." "What?" "He was gone to somewhere so far." "I can't understand." "Hey." "Why?" "Take a deep breathe." My whole body was shaking. Uncomfortable feelings were rising like fog. In the sound of my breath, J said. "D was dead." I just wanted to keep a silence. Tears started to run. "Don't tell me that lie." "It's true. He was dead a week ago." "Why didn't you tell me? For a week?" "I'm sorry." I wanted to throw up everything in my stomach. "Don't cry too much." With that words, J hung up the phone.
At that moment, I realized anybody can leave me that way. From that day, I've been trying to do what I can do to people in my best.
I had similar experience too. My grandfather was died few weeks ago. I regreted I didn't do well to him when he was alive. So sad story.
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